Really???

I know I haven't posed for a bit and this Blog seems a little negative but if you want to read all the wonderful things go read the Friendly Frehner's because this is not it. Sssoooo I am pissed. I always tell myself I would be happier if I weighed less or wore a smaller size. Ok I know you are all thinking. I am 5'7" wear a size 6 or 28-29 what am I complaining about. Well you see I strive for something called perfection and I do have a little weight to loose. I realize I will never have my "High School" Body back and I will probably never weigh less then 130lbs but I want to be hot and sexy. So at the end of January I started working out a LOT lets say 2 or 3 hours a day for the first two weeks. Ok then life set in and I realized that I needed to balance my time better with school. So 1 hour a day 7 days a week. Well I am here to tell you. Mentally I have been feeling pretty good and I think I look a little different but NO change in weight and No change in Measurements. I am sssooo Frustrated. I try and eat as healthy as possible and given I am under a ton of pressure and stress about grad school, but really? NOTHING!!! I don't believe in Binge Dieting, and I am to smart to consider diet pills, anorexia and bulimia. Not that the thought doesn't cross my mind that I would like to throw up after eating something I probably shouldn't have. Don't worry I never would I know it is bad for your teeth and in all honesty I would rather have a few extra pounds then look like I am part of the walking dead not to mention how much it screws up you insides. I am Frustrated. I feel like the things that are really important to me right now are out of my control. I can't control if I get into Grad School and now I can't even loss weight. Well there it is I have my butts and gutts class in 15 min so I better go. Any words of Advice would be much appreciated.