Average

So I know it has been awhile. Mostly due to the openness I have been expressing on the other blog and many thoughts that have gone through my head but then have left before being expressed. But today I am happy to say I am average. See for a long time I struggled with being average. I am the average height, average weight, average student, average friend, average wife, average person. I wanted to be more then average. I wanted to be Amazing and Beautiful and Wonderful. I recently found the definition of average as typical, common; ordinary. hhuummm nope that's not really me. My Personality is not typical, common or ordinary I mean have you met me. I am eccentric, intense and I LOVE LIFE. I can't help from smiling even when I haven't slept more then a few hours in days. Am doing crazy school assignments and am stressed beyond sanity and yet, I LOVE Life. That my dear friends is not average. I recently had a little lesson from God. When I was in high school I received a necklace from my father. It was gold had a pearl and a diamond. When I received the gift I remember thinking, dad that is so nice of you and I was really excited but it really was not my style. But I loved it. Every time I wear that necklace I think of my dad picking it out just for me. Even though it wasn't what I may have picked for myself I loved it because he chose it for me. Well the parallel it that my Heavenly Father picked things for me too. When he created me he picked my hair, my eyes, my body type my brain, my personality, my family and everything else. He knows us so well and knows what we need even if it is not what we would pick for ourselves. He knows that I would love and appreciate the wonderful flavors of good food. He blessed me with a body that would teach me to eat healthy and that I would not be able to get away with eating whatever I wanted. I am very careful of what I eat and have a very strong and healthy body. If he would have given me a skinny body and I could get away with eating really bad stuff I probably would have. I am grateful for the body he gave me. I am also grateful for the brain that he gave me. It works very different then most. This has opened many doors for me and has made me develop a great work ethic in order to learn. I hope that some day I will be a wonderful professor because of the experiences I have had through out my education. I may not be a straight A student but it is not due to lack of effort. Much like the necklace from my father I am learning to love what my Heavenly Father gives me. So I may still often think that I am average but I can't be. We are not like mathematical terms where we can be placed in the center of a group of numbers. We are all unique and individually made so there is no chart that we can all fall onto and be determined as average. So all that being said I will take my calculated average grades and say welcome to how the world works. Good thing I know my Heavenly Father.

I will have to post a picture later

Burned Out

I found that I never posted this a few weeks ago when I wrote it. So I decided to post it anyway.

IS this what BURNED OUT feels like. I mean go and go and go and go. Then I take a baby break and go and go and go some more. But have I really got to a point where I am really just Burned out? I can't be. I have to much to do. I am anxious, so much so that I just want to sleep. I don't ever remember getting to this point. For most people the idea of sleep might be a constant desire but not for me. I like to be awake I sleep because my body needs it not because I love to sleep. But that is all I want to do. I love doing, and going. Why is it that I have no desire right now.

I'm a Firework

I have felt a lot of things recently that I am not use to. I consider myself a busy but positive person. Well those around me seem to want to continue to hurt and tare me down. I have many songs I listen to but this song is my current solution. I don't love the video but I do love the song. I don't need to change for other people. God made me a little different and people around me let me know it all the time but guess what. I am the way I am for a reason and if you don't like Friendly, Kind, Happy me. Then I am sorry I wasn't raised to be mean, hurtful and unloving. So here it is. I must just be a Firework

Ready to Start

It has been a hard choice for me to make but I have come to the conclusion it is time for the Frehner's to move on to a new ward. We are not moving but the Spirit has a hard time when there is drama, contention and self-righteous people around. Today we attended a wonderful ward. It was a Normal family ward where church is run the way I have always known it to be. Sacrament meeting was wonderful. They talked about worshiping through music. I love this. I know that music is very powerful and I love having spiritual music in my daily life. Sunday School was about Job and his trials. Love learning about how to hold fast to God when hard times come. Relief Society covered a few different topics about the gospel. I left feeling so amazing and at peace. The church is true. I had a wonderful night with the Clark family. We had dinner, played games and even made smore's. What a wonderful way to start the new school year.

Welcome to your home Ginger Snap

I am happy to say I am the proud new owner of a VitaMixer. I named her Ginger Snap. I don't usually name things but my friend Carrie and I decided that calling it the VitaMixer all the time would be annoying not to mention it is a horrible name. I got it yesterday and it sat there in the box unopened till today. I was home for 3 hours before I decided to open it. I think I am scared of it. First off it is RREEAALLLYYY expensive. So I finally opened the box and read all the stuff it said in the welcome packet. Now I am even more scared of it. I haven't watched the instructional DVD yet. But it says to watch the DVD and then practice a few recipes in the Cookbook before trying to do anything on your own. This is getting very complicated. I still haven't seen my actual blender yet. The cardboard piece in the box is still covering this crazy machine. Maybe I will take a peek tomorrow As for now. I have the instructions on my coffee table and the mixer is still safe in its box.

No that is how it really is

So someone mentioned to me that when I write on my other blog I only talk about the good things. UUUUmmmm ok. . . . . I never thought about this because I am an open person and over share all the time. So I looked over the past few post and tried to think of the "bad things" that I supposedly didn't write about. Guess What! There were none. I do try and protect others in my life and wont share there "business" on my blog. Oh well I guess I should just say I am grateful to have the life that I do. I will have to try harder to mention the imperfect parts of my life.

Jiffy Lube no good

I just have to vent for a minute. I have been taking my car to the Saturn Dealership for 10 years. As most of you know the Saturn company is no longer with us. My A/C has been blowing but the air isn't cold. I needed an oil change and my what I thought was my A/C charged. Well I got there told them what I needed. They had me go set in there totally over A/C room. I was freezing. About a half hour later they came and got me and had me go over to there computer where they totally tried to hassle me. At Saturn I just went in and they did the basic oil change for my for a reasonable price. Jiffy Lube told me I should be using the 70.00 oil because my car was high milage. WHAT? If my car is getting old why on earth would I put that type of money into the every three month oil change. Then they wanted to fix this filter, and that plug. Then they told me about the A/C and that was a complicated story too. Well I left spending over 50.00 and they didn't even do anything to my A/C. "Whatever! I will find a place where they don't try and squeeze every penny out of me and don't profile me because I am a smart women not some dumb blond. I wont fall for your tricks." Oh and I told them that out loud.